allow yourself to cry

Allow yourself to cry.

I get so stressed.

So filled with fear.

I lash out not because I am angry but because I am overwhelmed. Overwhelmed with my inner thoughts, dialogue, and reactions.

Overwhelmed with my actions that don’t align with my wants.

I pull away and I yell not because I want to, but because I don’t know what else to do. I just want everything to stop.

To be still.

At that moment, when I am distancing myself from the people around me and my emotions, the thing I really want, but cannot express or ask for, is love.

So I am trying to cry.

I am trying to cry when I am overwhelmed.

I am trying to cry because it is a release.

I am trying to cry because it is a behavior that people respond to with compassion.

I am trying to cry so that I can express my inner agony in a way that doesn’t hurt others.

I am trying to cry because it feels good.

I am trying to cry.

Tears are a powerful release; a way to stop and start again. A way to validate your experience and allow yourself to break down.

A way to love you.

Allow yourself to cry.

Ask someone for a hug.